I am very sad to note that
my unaware life guard girlfriend seems to have left me, without even knowing that is what she was doing. Since I last wrote about her I have probably been swimming on at least half a dozen occasions and each time someone else had taken over the pool duties. To begin with I thought that maybe my girlfriend had gone off on her holidays (alone - she must have no-one but me) or had maybe been temporarily assigned to gym or sun bed duties, but I think after more than a month has passed that I have to accept she has moved on to pastures new.
I suspect that she probably got weirded out by some of the disgusting lechy blokes old enough to be her father who would leer at her and her beautiful bare legs as they swum up and down the pool. Maybe one of these perverts even started writing down his lewd thoughts on the internet or something and she became aware of his disgusting intentions and hopeless devotion and got freaked out and decided she had to leave the country. Blokes like that make me sick. My courtly love was pure and unsullied by thoughts of her as anything but a kind of untouchable angel.
Generally my girlfriend has been replaced by a quite similar looking woman, also from somewhere in Europe who is perfectly attractive and friendly, but who will never replace the previous woman, whatever she was called in my affections. My random love of strangers is something special and I cannot just transfer these feelings to someone else on a whim, especially if their nose is a bit bigger and their bare legs aren't quite as sexy as the one I liked before. Not that that's what I was interested in. The bare legs did nothing for me. I think I have made that point enough to prove that the bare legs were not what I was interested in. Sometimes there is even a man sitting in on lifeguard duty and that's really out for me I am afraid. Even though my feelings aren't based on physical lust and only on a projection of what I imagine the lady's personality might be, that doesn't mean I could have courtly love for a man. There are many good reasons for this, but I can't go in to them here.
